Hello everyone and thanks for reading! Winter break is upon us and so are finals! I'm making sure to drill the Psychology info into my head so I'm feeling hopeful that I'll pass my class!
However, my previous week wasn't so nice.
(Sorry again for the bitchy, whiny journal. And excuse my French. Need to vent again so please bear with me! Dx)
On the 9th, I got into a nasty fight with my parents over my grades...again
. When I told my mom the last two grades I got, she kept saying that I can't get good grades and should just get a job and or clean around the house. When I kept telling her that no one's hiring because of the economy, she starts getting mad at me and doesn't want to answer with anything else. Tch.
Then my dad chimes in and starts comparing me to my sister, constantly bringing up my mistakes and rubbing them constantly in my face...like I don't know my own damn mistakes. I'm getting angrier because it's something that he always does and he never wants to correct any of his own mistakes. And when I tell him to leave me alone and both my parents blow up and starts to yell at me while occasionally sprinkling some cuss words in their rant as if to "prove their point", accusing me of being a "whiny, ungrateful child that always plays the 'victim' role". Yeah. They're "real Christians", all right.
It escalates even more afterwards, starting with me stupidly blurting out that they "treat me like trash" and didn't bother to explain. What I meant was that I felt mistreated they always seem to verbally attack me whenever something goes wrong but whenever I try to stand up for myself, they get angry and want to either put me out or hit me. One could consider it as "revenge" or a way to "snap back". My mom starts laughing and says she'll really "treat me like trash" if she wanted me to and then my dad tells me that I'm a liar and how I'm always complaining...or something to that effect.
After that, I don't remember what happened then but I know I had said something to my mom that was "sarcastic". But I do remember her shoving me to the ground and screaming at me. Now, my sister is watching everything and she's crying and begging my mom to stop, even though she's getting pushed away, too. Seeing that scene alone made me feel ten times guiltier than I was when the fight started. When she got up, she ran to me and hugged me, which made me start crying as I kept my back to my parents.
Didn't take long for everything to calm down, however; I'm still a little pissed at my parents, even though I'm telling myself to just forgive and forget, but I'm still feeling bad for my sister since she watched all of that happen, which makes me feel worse about myself now. I wouldn't blame anyone for siding with my parents since I was probably the biggest, stupidest douche in that fight.
Really, guys, don't get me wrong. I really am
grateful that I have a home and all...but I cannot stand it when my parents constantly patronize and criticize me and expect me to meekly take it. I'm not going to stand for that anymore! I do feel like leaving and finding my own apartment but I'd feel bad about leaving my sister behind as well as my friends. Plus, I know that the world will not be kind to me if I do. So I'm pretty much stuck in a rut.
...And that's my boring home life so far! Moving on to school life~ 8D
School has been okay. I'm working hard and studying so I can pass my final exams. Thank you to all of those who gave me support and encouragement. You guys have no idea how much that has helped me through this week. I was literally crying as I read all of your comments. Thank you, thank you, thank you so much! I will be willing to listen to anyone else's problems if they need someone to talk to. Please feel free to talk to me. ; w ;
Commissions and trades are still open since I need something else to do besides study. I'm getting closer and closer to my goal, thanks to all of those who have sent me orders! Thank you so much as well! I will work hard to make sure that your fanfics come out enjoyably well. People I Plan To Commission/Owe Commission Points To [If they're open... |D]
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Well, that's all for now! Thanks again for reading and have a great day/night!
...I want some damn chocolate. And I'm hungry. |D
- Yumi-chan, the chocolate-craving nerd~
P.S. This is my wishlist for
~ I hope they'll accept me!
Art, chibi or not, of one or all of my OCs: Alexa "Lexi" Maradona
| Mayumi Kimura
| Sierra Leone/Selina Kirkland
A one-shot with my OCs with their respected love interests: Lexi with Kurama from YuYu Hakusho, my boy OC Ren, or Renji Abarai/Ichigo Kurosaki from BLEACH | Sierra Leone/Selina Kirkland with either America/Alfred Jones or Japan/Kiku Honda from Hetalia | Mayumi Kimura with Sasuke or Itachi Uchiha from Naruto: Shippuuden (I would prefer it if this fanfic was to take place in modern times. :3)
Stamps of any of my OCs with their love interests or by themselves~ :3